When The Words Come Back….With Attitude
I haven’t pressed publish here in a while. To be completely honest, I didn’t want to.
Hell, it’s been so long that my Spotify playlist that I listen to when I write is completely different. WTF Spotify?!
If you’re on the Sassy email list, I haven’t ended up in your inbox in a long ass time either.
Life has been hard. And bumpy. And, quite frankly, I wanted quiet.
Funny, right? In a world where we have people shouting at us from every angle of every place online and in life all I have been craving is quiet.
To be blunt, I think the world needs more quiet.
I’ve closed some social media accounts, deleted more emails than I care to count, and blocked out my calendar more than ever to do……absolutely nothing.
Before I post anything I think, “Is this going to help?”
More often than not, I delete the post. See, you didn’t even notice 😉
You can pop on social media, post a picture or two of your life, but the real stuff- the reality- I believe that sometimes you truly need to keep that to yourself until you’re ready to share it with the world.
As Glennon Doyle Melton says, ‘Write from your scars not your open wounds.’
So here I am- some wounds gaping wide that aren’t yet ready to be shared, some scars that are fresh and ripe for the writing and some……some scars that are old and have a new found perspective on them that makes me cringe at the writer I was a year ago.
In the past few months I’ve…..
Let go of some things professionally and eased into some opportunities that are completely new. …..
I’ve fallen out of love with social media and more in love with quiet….and then back in love with social media for the right reasons……..
Taught yoga classes and fell more in love with the mat and what it brings……
Cried more tears, drank more wine, spent more time alone, and stepped more into my voice as a feminist. (You’ve been warned. You can leave now if you’d like because it’s going to get a little louder in here when it comes to that.)
Maybe it was the 40th Birthday but today I can say that I’ve stepped into myself more than ever. As wild, unhinged, and more complicated than ever.
I’ve been tested and pushed to the point where I think the Universe was saying to me, “You say you’re sassy but are you REALLY sassy? How much do you truly want to be who you are meant to be? How much do your REALLY not care what people think or say about you?”
And with that, here we are.
This space is going to go through a bit of an evolution that mirrors my own personal one.
More writing, less pitching.
More heart, less strategy.
More scars, less polish.
The opposite of everything the gurus and experts tell you to do.
Some of the changes haven’t been made yet because I can only do so much in the span of the day but the words….they’ve started once again and they haven’t stopped so it’s time to start capturing them.
Maybe, in reality, this space is really just a place for me to come and share words that I have running in my head that need to get out.
This space is just the 2017 version of my table in my childhood bedroom where I used to write on my lined paper with my chubby hands in my footie pajamas.
Yet, ‘people’ are saying that ‘blogs are dead- everything is in video/Facebook live/podcasts…”
Whatevs. I’m just gonna do me.
And if you happen to read the words and they help- well then that’s a bonus.
Maybe you forgot this place was even here or maybe it’s your first time here.
Regardless, welcome to my heart. I’m so glad to share it with you.
If you’re up for heart open truth-telling about life-with a side of feminism and spirituality-well, then you have found your place, my friend.