2015: Dream Chaser’s Gratitude
At the end of each calendar year I take the time to personally reflect on the past year before setting my dreams for the open year that is upon me.
My beautiful, blank Danielle LaPorte planner is ready and willing to help me fulfill my every dream in 2016, but before that takes place, I reflect. I would urge you to do the same.
Get a little quiet, pour yourself a glass of vino, put on some soothing tunes and ponder 2015. Congratulate yourself for embracing the year and doing the best that you could with what you knew at the time- because that’s exactly what you did.
I thought I would share some of my gratitude for 2015 because she was beautiful, painful, epic, special, heart-wrenching and heart-filling and overall extraordinary. She was a ‘building year’ as my husband and I call her. She was all mine. Here’s my reflection on 2015 that’s fit for the interwebs:
I fell more in love with my husband than I ever thought was possible. He started his own business this year, while working full time as an executive, being a cool Dad and bringing me flowers every so often. We aren’t perfect but we are us. The taco lover and the hippy.
I cried a lot, laughed a lot and cried some more.
I fell in love with my yoga mat and the art and practice of yoga which led me to sign up for Yoga Teacher Training in 2016. And I burn incense, collect stones and meditate. I’m a hippy and proud of it. I think I always have been, I just now embrace it.
My hatred for cancer grew fierce. I won’t write about it yet, but it’s a pulse that runs through everything I know, do and understand.
My belief that love wins grew stronger and became my guiding life principle. Love wins, people. Love always wins.
I spent more money at Disney World than at any other place, and my son is happier, and more creative, for it. It’s not my ideal playground, but for now, it it what it is. All in the name of parenthood.
I colored my hair pink and it made me feel more empowered than I can ever remember feeling. And it’s here to stay.
I made all my money as an entrepreneur and funneled it through my Incorporated business. That feels pretty badass.
I wrote more words, posted more on social media and was plagerized for the first time. And I’m going to keep on writing, posting and creating because I have more stories to tell.
I gained weight, lost weight and gained some back and in the process realized that one of my greatest battles is with myself over the hatred of my body. It is my lifelong battle that I am on a quest to conquer with love, not protein. Love always wins.
I worked hard. Learned hard. Worked some more and it’s all coming together. Dreams become reality when you are willing to chase them. I’m living proof.
I lost friends and gained more amazing ones. Some that I met on the internet. Some who stayed at my house whom I only met online. And they weren’t weird. They were awesome. I met my husband online and now I know friends are created there as well.
I wrote the outline for my first book.
I wore less makeup, gave away the majority of my high heels and haven’t worn a suit in two years and it feels right for me.
I missed ‘home’ and was grateful to live where I live. In the same day. The struggle is real and it’s never easy.
I made less money than I did in 2013 and more than I did in 2014. Progress. Watch out 2016, I’m coming for you.
I read more books than I ever have before. Mostly from women authors 🙂
I still don’t understand Minecraft and yet, my son speaks about it daily. I nod and say, “Oh really.” a lot.
I learned to trust my gut even when I refused to listen to it and follow it up with action. Lesson learned.
I became a paid writer. Please excuse me while I type that again. I became a paid writer. Hot. Damn.
I spent more time with my son than in any previous year of his life. And I can tell. He’s different and so am I. Some moments it was amazing, others it was torturous. The path of being a Mom.
I cheered more women on than I ever have before because I want to be the woman cheering my fellow women on, not tearing them down. And yet, I’m still imperfect and learning.
This year has been one of the most amazing in my life. More words written, more lives touched, more tears shed, more pain, more joy – MORE. More of everything.
Heading into 2016 my husband and I always talk about our dreams and goals for the year. Usually I create a big list of measurables, goals and bullets. Not this year. I’m taking the Core Desired Feelings route (Thanks Danielle) and as I make decisions about my business, life and dreams they need to make me feel one, or even better ALL, of the following:
Joy. Vibrant. Flourishing. Light. Expressive.
I know enough to know that if it feels like that, I’m doing the right thing. The money, love, happiness and right path will always follow.
My wish for you as you head into a new year is that you pause and take a look at 2015 for all of the beauty and anguish that she was rolled into one year. Yet, I would ask that you focus on the beauty of the year. What did you accomplish? What did you enjoy? Why was it amazing?
And as you enter into 2016 what is the ONE THING that is the crazy dream that you would love to achieve in the new year?
Thank you for being a part of my 2015. Your presence here made me more joyful and vibrant than I have words for. May your year ahead be filled with all of the things that you dream of- and more.
All my love. xo