Excitement for Blotchy Necks & TV Interviews
Last week I was sitting on the couch still attempting to wake up. My dream chaser mug of coffee, almond milk and peppermint oil was starting to wake me up. I look up and my little dude is bounding towards me with his laptop in hand.
“Mom, I just did a search for you on You Tube and I found that interview that you did on the news. Remember when you used to leave realllllllly early in the morning when we lived in Buffalo so you could be on TV? I found you!”
I could hear my own voice coming from his Mac and as he turned his screen towards me, there I was.
As women oftentimes we would look at something like that and start the list of critiques. I started down that path quickly- blotches on my neck, the way I talk out of the side of my mouth………
And then I stopped.
I tilted my head and really looked at, and listened to, myself.
That was the me of 3 years ago.
Suddenly I had compassion for her. Excitement even.
She didn’t know all of the amazing things that were coming.
Yes, she would struggle through many things but there was so much amazingness coming her way that she didn’t even know about.
How she would have the courage to take leaps and go out on her own.
She would move- physically and spiritually.
Her lapel pins would be replaced with mala beads.
The curls were present, yet the pink highlights hadn’t made an appearance yet.
Maybe she gave Logan a bath in that same outfit later that night from working early and late. That doesn’t happen much anymore.
But the passion-the full-on, driven passionate determination to use my voice is still there.
In fact, now it’s stronger than ever.
I still love supporting other women. Empowering, building up, cheering on, pushing the envelope and maybe being that one woman in the room speaking the truth and showing my scars when it may be too scary for other women to do so.
Oftentimes we are in such a rush to move forward towards something….
A different life.
Away from whatever it is that we’re not loving right now.
With that forward motion we often look backward with judgement and disdain rather than compassion and excitement.
Of course you didn’t know then what you know now, but that version of you brought you to the version that you are today.
She was having the ideas, taking the steps and priming you for the amazing, brave, daring and exceptional woman that you are today.
The next time you see a picture (Facebook is good to remind us of the memories ‘on this day’ or a You Tube savvy 9 year old) or video of your younger self, before you leap to criticism, turn it into compassion.
Know that each action, idea, urge, nudge and belief that you have today is shaping the woman that you will be in 3 years time.
Isn’t that so damn exciting??!
I sure think so.
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